Post by Crystal Millar on Jun 14, 2016 4:42:51 GMT
You know…
I truly am at a lost for words right now. At All In that’s when everything changed for me, and no it’s not about the way I defended the title. As much as the championship means to me it’s nothing compared to my friendship with one of my best friends in Ana Valentine. I know I get a lot of flack for always seeming to be protected by the likes of Ana. For having my head far up her ass among other things but that’s just I find myself being devoted to her and I wouldn’t stab her in the back because that’s not who I am as a person.
But at All In in Atlantic City I see she couldn’t feel the same way because she had no problem driving the championship right into my face and laying me out for all of the world to see. She told everybody that the title should be upheld by the true future of this business and that’s when it was smashed against my skull.
Do I care about the championship? Honestly that’s a real rough thing to answer right now but my eyes are on my friendship and I feel like I failed Ana.
Is business really that important to Ana that she would turn her back on her very own best friend? To be honest knowing how Ana is when it comes to money and her business I already know the answer to that question. I just feel devastated and if I could turn back time I would.
I will be the first to admit that my rise in this company wasn’t what I expected. I barely have beaten anybody. As a matter of fact my only true win was against Gina and she’s someone I could have beaten on my worst day but when I get put into the ring with the likes of Kayla, Amber Richards or anybody of that caliber. All of my matches tend to end the same way and I know I can’t have that happen anymore.
Ana I am talking to you right now because as much as Sarah Twilight might puff her chest out and talk up the fact that she can beat all of these cunts in the ring and how she is the scariest person on the roster I don’t fear her at all.
What I fear more anything is you because and I just aren’t close friends. We are sisters and when you bashed me over in the face that championship title. I couldn’t just accept it as a business decision. I took it too heart.
Ever since that day I have been having all sorts of crazy thoughts running through my head. Thoughts that want me to hate Ana for what she did. Thoughts that are telling me that she’s selfish and that she was never my friend to begin with but thinking things through I can’t afford to hate her because when I was at my lowest she was there to pick me up.
If there’s a word that comes to my mind when it involves you Ana it would be the word sorry. I am sorry for what I put you through. Sorry that I didn’t do my part as a champion and be the champion that you thought I would become.
Ever since the very beginning you were there to catch me when I was falling and I lost the desire to be a fighting champion because I knew that you would be there to bail me out when the going got tough and I had nothing to worry about.
While the entire roster is out there competing on a weekly basis. I have been overly protected. Getting easy matches at some points not even wrestling at all because I was Ana’s champion.
I appreciate the opportunity you have given me Ana. VWS has allowed me to break my four year drought of not winning a world championship and I have been able to become relevant again but as good as all of that sound. There was just something missing from my big championship win.
It’s the fact that I really haven’t earned it. I was just there basically given a shot at the title whereas others had to fight for the very opportunity to be in the first World Championship match. It was handed to me on a silver platter.
I might have been labeled a champion on paper but deep down I knew I wasn’t a champion and it gets sickening to hear the likes of the Richards sister expose that fact about me very week, but it’s hard to say anything to them when I know for a fact that they are right.
But all of that’s over with now. When you hit me Ana you woke up something within me and as I took the walk of shame all the way to the back I knew I had to show myself to be a fighting champion. I knew I had to show the entire roster that I am deserving of this spot.
Starting today I will be the champion that this company has been searching for and I refuse to continue to be the woman that everybody thinks I am.
Weak…
Irrelevant…
And nothing without Ana to guide me.
Ana deep down i want to strike you but that’s not what I am going to do. I couldn’t bring myself to do that to someone I love more than anything. And as the woman you chose as a Godmother there is only one thing I can do to show my gratitude to you.
That one thing being to fight my heart out. So at TNT I am welcome into the arena with one thought on my mind, and that’s to walk away as the All Star Champion.
Sarah Twilight you might see yourself as this big threat. As a woman who is going to take my spot but that shit just isn’t going to happen because I won’t allow it.
So I hope you are ready for what’s to come because at TNT even you Twilight will see that this is one rose that refuses to wither away.
I truly am at a lost for words right now. At All In that’s when everything changed for me, and no it’s not about the way I defended the title. As much as the championship means to me it’s nothing compared to my friendship with one of my best friends in Ana Valentine. I know I get a lot of flack for always seeming to be protected by the likes of Ana. For having my head far up her ass among other things but that’s just I find myself being devoted to her and I wouldn’t stab her in the back because that’s not who I am as a person.
But at All In in Atlantic City I see she couldn’t feel the same way because she had no problem driving the championship right into my face and laying me out for all of the world to see. She told everybody that the title should be upheld by the true future of this business and that’s when it was smashed against my skull.
Do I care about the championship? Honestly that’s a real rough thing to answer right now but my eyes are on my friendship and I feel like I failed Ana.
Is business really that important to Ana that she would turn her back on her very own best friend? To be honest knowing how Ana is when it comes to money and her business I already know the answer to that question. I just feel devastated and if I could turn back time I would.
I will be the first to admit that my rise in this company wasn’t what I expected. I barely have beaten anybody. As a matter of fact my only true win was against Gina and she’s someone I could have beaten on my worst day but when I get put into the ring with the likes of Kayla, Amber Richards or anybody of that caliber. All of my matches tend to end the same way and I know I can’t have that happen anymore.
Ana I am talking to you right now because as much as Sarah Twilight might puff her chest out and talk up the fact that she can beat all of these cunts in the ring and how she is the scariest person on the roster I don’t fear her at all.
What I fear more anything is you because and I just aren’t close friends. We are sisters and when you bashed me over in the face that championship title. I couldn’t just accept it as a business decision. I took it too heart.
Ever since that day I have been having all sorts of crazy thoughts running through my head. Thoughts that want me to hate Ana for what she did. Thoughts that are telling me that she’s selfish and that she was never my friend to begin with but thinking things through I can’t afford to hate her because when I was at my lowest she was there to pick me up.
If there’s a word that comes to my mind when it involves you Ana it would be the word sorry. I am sorry for what I put you through. Sorry that I didn’t do my part as a champion and be the champion that you thought I would become.
Ever since the very beginning you were there to catch me when I was falling and I lost the desire to be a fighting champion because I knew that you would be there to bail me out when the going got tough and I had nothing to worry about.
While the entire roster is out there competing on a weekly basis. I have been overly protected. Getting easy matches at some points not even wrestling at all because I was Ana’s champion.
I appreciate the opportunity you have given me Ana. VWS has allowed me to break my four year drought of not winning a world championship and I have been able to become relevant again but as good as all of that sound. There was just something missing from my big championship win.
It’s the fact that I really haven’t earned it. I was just there basically given a shot at the title whereas others had to fight for the very opportunity to be in the first World Championship match. It was handed to me on a silver platter.
I might have been labeled a champion on paper but deep down I knew I wasn’t a champion and it gets sickening to hear the likes of the Richards sister expose that fact about me very week, but it’s hard to say anything to them when I know for a fact that they are right.
But all of that’s over with now. When you hit me Ana you woke up something within me and as I took the walk of shame all the way to the back I knew I had to show myself to be a fighting champion. I knew I had to show the entire roster that I am deserving of this spot.
Starting today I will be the champion that this company has been searching for and I refuse to continue to be the woman that everybody thinks I am.
Weak…
Irrelevant…
And nothing without Ana to guide me.
Ana deep down i want to strike you but that’s not what I am going to do. I couldn’t bring myself to do that to someone I love more than anything. And as the woman you chose as a Godmother there is only one thing I can do to show my gratitude to you.
That one thing being to fight my heart out. So at TNT I am welcome into the arena with one thought on my mind, and that’s to walk away as the All Star Champion.
Sarah Twilight you might see yourself as this big threat. As a woman who is going to take my spot but that shit just isn’t going to happen because I won’t allow it.
So I hope you are ready for what’s to come because at TNT even you Twilight will see that this is one rose that refuses to wither away.
{Crystal Millar found herself at the apartment of Eliza Valentine. She really wasn’t feeling like herself. After the events of All In something was just different about the Silver Screen Queen. She couldn’t get over the fact of what Ana did to her and she needed to talk to someone. Her entire life was crashing down. Her husband had separated from her. Her friend Ana had betrayed her trust and Crystal was left with nothing. She went to the one place where she knew she could find someone to talk too. That place being the home of Eliza Valentine and it was there where she had hoped to speak to her long time protege Kate Steele. Crystal stood outside the door as she waited for somebody to come answer it. It wasn’t long before a blonde answered the door. That blonde being Eliza Valentine.}
“Can I help you Hilton?!”
{She gazed at Crystal as the pink haired beauty just sighed back in return.}
“Look Eliza I didn’t come here to start any shit… Is Kate here?”
{The blonde stared back at Crystal as she shook her head in disgust.}
“You aren’t going to hurt her are you?”
{Crystal shook her head as she glanced back at Eliza.}
“I am not here for anything… Can I just talk to Kate?!}
{Eliza snickered as she walked away and it wasn’t long before the blue haired English woman walked up to the door. Eliza looked over at Kate.}
“You going to be alright Kateykins?!”
“Yeah I’ll be fine… She knows not to try anything with you two here…”
{Eliza smiles back in return.}
“Good I’ll be getting the hot fudge ready… If she tries to pull anything just give a yell and Kayla and myself will be right there for you…”
{Kate nodded her head back as Eliza walked away leaving Kate there with Crystal. Kate closed the door behind her as she stared right into the eyes of Crystal.}
“You know you have some nerve coming here… You really aren’t the most liked person around here…”
{Crystal nodded in return as she looked back at Kate.}
“I know… I kinda get that vibe no matter where I go, but tell me what did I do wrong? What did I do that would have Ana turn her back on me like that?”
{Kate couldn’t help but scoff in return as she looked at Crystal.}
“So that’s what you are going to do now? Come at me with this emotional bullshit. You are much better than this Crystal…”
{Crystal looks a little taken back.}
“I am?”
{Kate nods her head in agreement.}
“Yeah… No shit you are better than this… You honestly want to know why Ana did that to you? It’s because you currently have your head up your ass… When she told you to sign up for this company she honestly thought she was going to get the bitch that she adored. The bitch that would do anything to get in the top spot. That would put others down…”
{Kate takes a breath as she continues to speak.}
“Sometimes you can get annoying… That’s the woman she wanted and instead she has gotten someone that’s a pansy. Somebody that’s comfortable with just doing enough to get by and not really going above and beyond that…”
{Kate smiles wider than before.}
“For Christ sakes you are the Silver Screen Queen! The Rose Goddess the woman who is supposed to make bitches bow before her not suck up and be a kiss ass… Look at me! I told Ana straight out that I was the best damn ladder match wrestler in the world. Is that anything close to the truth? Of course not but when Ana called me out on my shit I didn’t back down from it because that’s not who I am. I am better than that and I’ll stand my ground before I let a bitch talk me down…”
{Kate couldn’t help but look deep into Crystal’s eyes.}
“Remember when you were training me at the Absolute Wrestling Academy? You told me there was a lot of people who were going to talk shit in the wrestling world… And if they ever had something to say about you. You wouldn’t hesitate to shut them up… What’s changed since then? I’ll tell you what changed… Your own confidence in yourself...The question is what are you going to do about it?”
{Crystal shrugs her shoulders as she keeps her eyes locked back on Kate.}
“I really don’t know… “
“What do you mean you don’t know?! You step the fuck up… So what if everybody thinks you are the worst champion ever in the company. There’s a reason Ana chose YOU as her champion. She didn’t choose me… She didn’t choose Amber, or Kayla, or Eliza. She chose you so obviously she saw something in you. You just need to find out what that is and once you find it. Unleashing upon everyone that would dare get in your way…”
{Crystal smiles as she grins back at Kate.}
“Thank you… I needed that…”
“Good… Now go out there and do what everybody wanted you to do since the very beginning and if you ever have to come to me. I won’t hesitate to slap you in the face. Do I make myself clear?”
“Crystal…”
{Kate smiles in return.}
“Good now if you would excuse me… My girls have some hot fudge and I really don’t want to miss out on what’s going on… Care to join us?”
{Crystal is taken back.}
“Ummm no… I think I’ll pass but thanks for the offer. I rather not be in the same room with Kayla right now…”
“Fine but you are missing out. We are using each other to make hot sundaes. Gotta have the hot fudge. The whipped cream and God I especially love it when we pop the cherry! It’s so amazing!”
{Kate giggles again as Crystal backs up.}
“Thank you so much Kate… Thank you for everything…”
“Don’t mention it now if you would excuse me… I got something to do…”
{Kate giggles as she finds herself back in the apartment as Crystal walks away with a newfound level of confidence within her.}
Sarah fucking Twilight so fate has brought us into facing each other sooner than what was expected. Let me just get something out into the open. You are not going to beat me. You won’t ever beat me and as terrible as a champion I might have been in your eyes. You don’t deserve a shot at my title.
What makes you more credible and fit to get a shot at what’s around my waist? I may be trash and terrible, and even unfit. But I have been here since day one. I have been inside the ring getting my ass kicked on a weekly basis.
Granted there was a stretch after I won my title where I wasn’t booked at all and really didn’t appear on the shows that much but at least I have a few matches under my belt. I am not going to get frightened over some cunt who has only wrestled in one match and expect to take you seriously.
I have over 11 years of experience and I am not going to back down just because you think you are going to unleash your terror across this company because I know for a fact that I am much better than that…
After all I am Crystal Millar and despite what you may have heard about me or what you have seen. It doesn’t compare or come anywhere close to what I am really about. Congratulations you came out to the ring and you were able to light something up within Ana Valentine to where she had to make an impact.
But what you didn’t realize is by stirring something up within Ana you actually stirred something up within me. You have put me in a situation where I know the training wheels aren’t there anymore so I am free to go about riding my own bike. What that means is that I will fall and I will admit I didn’t put any effort into anything because I thought my power of friendship would be enough to carry me onward in this company but I was mistaken.
There was going to be a time where I needed to act like a champion and at TNT you are going to get that champion. It took me four long fucking years to get a World Championship. Four years of being told I am a has been. Of being told I wasn’t good enough. Four years of always coming so close yet so far, and you think that after I won this title that I am ready to depart from it right now?
The answer to that question is hell no…
Ana chose me, and she chose me because she knew that if I was ever in a position where I was pushed to the edge that the woman she chose to be the Godmother of her child would emerge, and guess what there’s no more holding back.
So yes… It was such a great business decision on what she had to do at ALL IN because now she was unable to unleash the best version of me.
Do you think for a second that a woman like myself who is used to being on the front cover of magazines who adores to be in the spotlight is ready to give up being the focal point of the Women’s division in this company?
No… I love the posters. Seeing my figure on the billboards right next to my best friend and I know I said somethings to Ana but I am not going to allow a business decision get in the way of our friendship. Especially considering it was me who wasn’t taking care of business.
So I am supposed to believe you are going to bring chaos in this company? Bitch please… We heard that before and as much as you shit on this division. I could have sworn it was in a media post that it was your camp that stated you came to this company for the competition.
So obviously everyone isn’t as worthless as you make them out to be. Yes you may have beaten Kate and Eliza… Congratulations but on Tuesday you are stepping in the ring with me. Not the Crystal that’s getting carried by Ana but the woman who is coming to the ring with the simple purpose to out wrestle you.
Do you think you have what it takes to beat a woman who has finally decided to wake up?
Do you really think you have what it takes to rip the title away from me? If you do… Well you are going to earn it but Ana has put way too much faith in me for me to just lose to you.
And losing the belt would make the belt lose it’s credibility. I need to build it up into being THE title and the only way to do that is by being a fighting champion. You came for a fight I am bringing the war.
And as far as you go Amber. Stay the fuck out of my way. This is my match and whatever happens you call it down the middle.
So what do you plan to do to me Twilight.
I lost my husband… I am on the verge of losing my friends, but I am hell bent on making sure I don’t lose the one thing that makes me relevant in this company.
You want a fight? You are getting the war…
So go on and bow… Make way for the almighty… SILVER SCREEN QUEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
What makes you more credible and fit to get a shot at what’s around my waist? I may be trash and terrible, and even unfit. But I have been here since day one. I have been inside the ring getting my ass kicked on a weekly basis.
Granted there was a stretch after I won my title where I wasn’t booked at all and really didn’t appear on the shows that much but at least I have a few matches under my belt. I am not going to get frightened over some cunt who has only wrestled in one match and expect to take you seriously.
I have over 11 years of experience and I am not going to back down just because you think you are going to unleash your terror across this company because I know for a fact that I am much better than that…
After all I am Crystal Millar and despite what you may have heard about me or what you have seen. It doesn’t compare or come anywhere close to what I am really about. Congratulations you came out to the ring and you were able to light something up within Ana Valentine to where she had to make an impact.
But what you didn’t realize is by stirring something up within Ana you actually stirred something up within me. You have put me in a situation where I know the training wheels aren’t there anymore so I am free to go about riding my own bike. What that means is that I will fall and I will admit I didn’t put any effort into anything because I thought my power of friendship would be enough to carry me onward in this company but I was mistaken.
There was going to be a time where I needed to act like a champion and at TNT you are going to get that champion. It took me four long fucking years to get a World Championship. Four years of being told I am a has been. Of being told I wasn’t good enough. Four years of always coming so close yet so far, and you think that after I won this title that I am ready to depart from it right now?
The answer to that question is hell no…
Ana chose me, and she chose me because she knew that if I was ever in a position where I was pushed to the edge that the woman she chose to be the Godmother of her child would emerge, and guess what there’s no more holding back.
So yes… It was such a great business decision on what she had to do at ALL IN because now she was unable to unleash the best version of me.
Do you think for a second that a woman like myself who is used to being on the front cover of magazines who adores to be in the spotlight is ready to give up being the focal point of the Women’s division in this company?
No… I love the posters. Seeing my figure on the billboards right next to my best friend and I know I said somethings to Ana but I am not going to allow a business decision get in the way of our friendship. Especially considering it was me who wasn’t taking care of business.
So I am supposed to believe you are going to bring chaos in this company? Bitch please… We heard that before and as much as you shit on this division. I could have sworn it was in a media post that it was your camp that stated you came to this company for the competition.
So obviously everyone isn’t as worthless as you make them out to be. Yes you may have beaten Kate and Eliza… Congratulations but on Tuesday you are stepping in the ring with me. Not the Crystal that’s getting carried by Ana but the woman who is coming to the ring with the simple purpose to out wrestle you.
Do you think you have what it takes to beat a woman who has finally decided to wake up?
Do you really think you have what it takes to rip the title away from me? If you do… Well you are going to earn it but Ana has put way too much faith in me for me to just lose to you.
And losing the belt would make the belt lose it’s credibility. I need to build it up into being THE title and the only way to do that is by being a fighting champion. You came for a fight I am bringing the war.
And as far as you go Amber. Stay the fuck out of my way. This is my match and whatever happens you call it down the middle.
So what do you plan to do to me Twilight.
I lost my husband… I am on the verge of losing my friends, but I am hell bent on making sure I don’t lose the one thing that makes me relevant in this company.
You want a fight? You are getting the war…
So go on and bow… Make way for the almighty… SILVER SCREEN QUEEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ana this one is for you…