Post by kate on May 17, 2016 4:51:43 GMT
You know I have to be honest with you all.
When I made my debut to this company last week I thought everything was going to be a walk in the park after all if you were one of the best submissionists in the entire world wouldn’t you flaunt it?
The answer to that question is yes. Of course you would rub it in… Why wouldn’t you? When this company signed me they got one of the best free agents on the market. One of the best wrestlers and yet Ana Valentine not once welcomed me to the roster with open arms. Not once did I get a thank you Kate for being apart of my women’s roster. Instead I get shat on for my choice of friends and that’s what pisses me off.
Why can’t you see a star when one is looking at you in the face?
I am the best damn thing that this company has to offer. I am the star that is on the rise and if I have my way I will go on to one day become the Women’s World Champion. Everyone knows since winning the championship Ana is simply protecting Crystal Millar. She’s not a true champion. She’s not a real champion simply one on paper.
It felt so sickening to have to sit in the middle of the ring and watch Ana talk up that Prima Donna bitch but I can’t focus on Crystal because my mind should be on that of fighting Amber Richards and stepping into the ring with Sarah Twilight.
Last week was a wake up call for me and I honestly don’t know how I should feel about it. I thought I was going to be the next big thing in this division. I thought I was going to turn some heads and more importantly I thought I was going to be the one to help my friends. Show Eliza and Kayla that they have someone on their side, and that the bias favoritism of Ana Valentine won’t be tolerated.
But as I stood toe to toe with Amber Richards I realized my efforts just weren’t enough. Amber made short work of me and as good as I thought I was. As much as I thought I improved over the years it simply wasn’t enough.
And Amber was there to take my pride away so I don’t even know where I stand right now.
What good am I if I can’t even win a simple match to prove to my friends that they could count on me?
What real good am I?
I truly feel as if I have been in this position before. I join a company. I get built up to the point that I get put in a big time match but I just don’t have it in me to push ahead to be the star that I know I can become.
So what good am I?
Am I a failure of a friend? Am I one that Eliza and Kayla can depend on?
To be honest I really don’t know. It’s one thing to take a lost but it’s another to take a lost to a woman who you grew up watching. Who was the epitome of women’s wrestling to you. Who was that strong English hero that you looked up at and now she has her ass far up Ana’s ass.
Is it really about loyalty or is it about just doing whatever it takes to quickly rise to the top and take a step closer to the championship?
It really has hurt me and I expected more from being in this company. There’s a part of me that wanted more and now this week the horrors of last week are going to come back to haunt me because I have to deal with stepping into the ring not only against Amber but against the likes of Sarah Twilight,
Eliza is going to be put into a position where she is going to be forced to rely on me, and I don’t know if I could be the woman that you want me to be to aid you…
I know I shouldn’t feel this way but Amber really destroyed my confidence and… I don’t know what it’s going to take to get it back…
I found myself in my locker room. Many times I have taken the walk of shame but this time it felt different because I wasn’t out there representing myself. I was out there representing a position in the company. I was out there to take a stance and I felt like I failed at that. I couldn’t help but sit down on the bench in my locker room. Nothing was going the way I envisioned it. I lowered my head right into the confines of my hands as I wanted to hide my face away so that nobody could see me. However I found a hand running across my back as a voice whispered out to me.
“It’s okay Kateykins… You can ummm cheer up…” I slowly gazed up as it was Kayla Richards. She had a sarcastic expression on her lips and I could only turn my nose up at her as I let the sigh escape.
“Get your damn hands off of me… I don’t take too kindly to people trying to troll me…” I snapped back but what else could I do. I had promised Kayla and Eliza so much. I promised I would be their hero. I would be the woman to help aid them in their battle against Ana Valentine and her trio of women but instead I fell short of that. I just blew Kayla away but that is when I felt a more gentle and tender touch rubbing across my back. It felt really good. It was comforting. I looked up and there she was. Eliza Valentine was smiling down at me as she embraced me into a tight hug.
“Why are you feeling so down Kateykins?”
Would these girls just stop calling me Kateykins already. It was enough to drive me to the point of insanity. I know I am a small girl but they don’t have to keep rubbing it in but that touch was just so damn soft and I really felt like I had a true down to earth friend in Eliza. Someone that I could depend on.
“It’s just that match out there tonight… I wanted to be the hero for the both of you and….”
Kayla looks back at me as she grins in return.
“And you thought you were just going to be a Richards all by yourself?”
The more Kayla kept talking is the more that I found myself hating everything she had to say. “Right… Way for the positive reinforcement Kayla…”
I snapped back but Kayla could only laugh back in return and Eliza immediately found herself getting right in the middle. “Ladies calm down… It’s ok Kate you did good out there tonight…”
I could only shake my head in disgust as I looked back at the pretty blonde. “Good? I lost out there tonight… I don’t understand how that is anywhere close to good…”
Eliza can only smile in return as she looks deep into my eyes. “Look we all know what we were getting into when we decided to take this stand against them. They have experience over us it isn’t going to be easy but we need to keep pushing, and next week Kateykins… It’s going to be you and I out there in that ring. After all our biggest strength is in numbers…”
I can only smile in return as I knew she was right. This wasn’t going to be easy and I had to be there for Eliza and Kayla. Not only because I wanted to be there for them but because at the end of the day. They needed me there for them.
So here I am staring at a tag team match against the likes of Amber and Sara Twilight. At first I was looking at myself as being a failure as being someone that Eliza couldn’t depend on but we both know that wars aren’t going to be won over the course of one night. We both know that’s its going to take a long slow grind to get to where we both want to go and only through hard work and dedication will we finally be in the place that we want to be in.
Sarah and Amber you both are on the wrong side of the battlefield and I don’t understand how the two of you could stand to do Ana’s bidding. At the end of the day do you really think that Ana Valentine gives a shit about any of this?
Do you really think she gives a flying fuck on who tries to stand up for her or not? No the only thing on her mind is the dollar bill and as long as it’s paying her that’s all she wants in the long run.
Did i drop the ball against Amber last week?
Yes there’s no doubt about that but this week it’s about me and Eliza together. It’s about showing the whole world what the two of us can do together. So bring it you stupid cunts because this week you will find yourselves getting SHIPWRECKED
When I made my debut to this company last week I thought everything was going to be a walk in the park after all if you were one of the best submissionists in the entire world wouldn’t you flaunt it?
The answer to that question is yes. Of course you would rub it in… Why wouldn’t you? When this company signed me they got one of the best free agents on the market. One of the best wrestlers and yet Ana Valentine not once welcomed me to the roster with open arms. Not once did I get a thank you Kate for being apart of my women’s roster. Instead I get shat on for my choice of friends and that’s what pisses me off.
Why can’t you see a star when one is looking at you in the face?
I am the best damn thing that this company has to offer. I am the star that is on the rise and if I have my way I will go on to one day become the Women’s World Champion. Everyone knows since winning the championship Ana is simply protecting Crystal Millar. She’s not a true champion. She’s not a real champion simply one on paper.
It felt so sickening to have to sit in the middle of the ring and watch Ana talk up that Prima Donna bitch but I can’t focus on Crystal because my mind should be on that of fighting Amber Richards and stepping into the ring with Sarah Twilight.
Last week was a wake up call for me and I honestly don’t know how I should feel about it. I thought I was going to be the next big thing in this division. I thought I was going to turn some heads and more importantly I thought I was going to be the one to help my friends. Show Eliza and Kayla that they have someone on their side, and that the bias favoritism of Ana Valentine won’t be tolerated.
But as I stood toe to toe with Amber Richards I realized my efforts just weren’t enough. Amber made short work of me and as good as I thought I was. As much as I thought I improved over the years it simply wasn’t enough.
And Amber was there to take my pride away so I don’t even know where I stand right now.
What good am I if I can’t even win a simple match to prove to my friends that they could count on me?
What real good am I?
I truly feel as if I have been in this position before. I join a company. I get built up to the point that I get put in a big time match but I just don’t have it in me to push ahead to be the star that I know I can become.
So what good am I?
Am I a failure of a friend? Am I one that Eliza and Kayla can depend on?
To be honest I really don’t know. It’s one thing to take a lost but it’s another to take a lost to a woman who you grew up watching. Who was the epitome of women’s wrestling to you. Who was that strong English hero that you looked up at and now she has her ass far up Ana’s ass.
Is it really about loyalty or is it about just doing whatever it takes to quickly rise to the top and take a step closer to the championship?
It really has hurt me and I expected more from being in this company. There’s a part of me that wanted more and now this week the horrors of last week are going to come back to haunt me because I have to deal with stepping into the ring not only against Amber but against the likes of Sarah Twilight,
Eliza is going to be put into a position where she is going to be forced to rely on me, and I don’t know if I could be the woman that you want me to be to aid you…
I know I shouldn’t feel this way but Amber really destroyed my confidence and… I don’t know what it’s going to take to get it back…
I found myself in my locker room. Many times I have taken the walk of shame but this time it felt different because I wasn’t out there representing myself. I was out there representing a position in the company. I was out there to take a stance and I felt like I failed at that. I couldn’t help but sit down on the bench in my locker room. Nothing was going the way I envisioned it. I lowered my head right into the confines of my hands as I wanted to hide my face away so that nobody could see me. However I found a hand running across my back as a voice whispered out to me.
“It’s okay Kateykins… You can ummm cheer up…” I slowly gazed up as it was Kayla Richards. She had a sarcastic expression on her lips and I could only turn my nose up at her as I let the sigh escape.
“Get your damn hands off of me… I don’t take too kindly to people trying to troll me…” I snapped back but what else could I do. I had promised Kayla and Eliza so much. I promised I would be their hero. I would be the woman to help aid them in their battle against Ana Valentine and her trio of women but instead I fell short of that. I just blew Kayla away but that is when I felt a more gentle and tender touch rubbing across my back. It felt really good. It was comforting. I looked up and there she was. Eliza Valentine was smiling down at me as she embraced me into a tight hug.
“Why are you feeling so down Kateykins?”
Would these girls just stop calling me Kateykins already. It was enough to drive me to the point of insanity. I know I am a small girl but they don’t have to keep rubbing it in but that touch was just so damn soft and I really felt like I had a true down to earth friend in Eliza. Someone that I could depend on.
“It’s just that match out there tonight… I wanted to be the hero for the both of you and….”
Kayla looks back at me as she grins in return.
“And you thought you were just going to be a Richards all by yourself?”
The more Kayla kept talking is the more that I found myself hating everything she had to say. “Right… Way for the positive reinforcement Kayla…”
I snapped back but Kayla could only laugh back in return and Eliza immediately found herself getting right in the middle. “Ladies calm down… It’s ok Kate you did good out there tonight…”
I could only shake my head in disgust as I looked back at the pretty blonde. “Good? I lost out there tonight… I don’t understand how that is anywhere close to good…”
Eliza can only smile in return as she looks deep into my eyes. “Look we all know what we were getting into when we decided to take this stand against them. They have experience over us it isn’t going to be easy but we need to keep pushing, and next week Kateykins… It’s going to be you and I out there in that ring. After all our biggest strength is in numbers…”
I can only smile in return as I knew she was right. This wasn’t going to be easy and I had to be there for Eliza and Kayla. Not only because I wanted to be there for them but because at the end of the day. They needed me there for them.
So here I am staring at a tag team match against the likes of Amber and Sara Twilight. At first I was looking at myself as being a failure as being someone that Eliza couldn’t depend on but we both know that wars aren’t going to be won over the course of one night. We both know that’s its going to take a long slow grind to get to where we both want to go and only through hard work and dedication will we finally be in the place that we want to be in.
Sarah and Amber you both are on the wrong side of the battlefield and I don’t understand how the two of you could stand to do Ana’s bidding. At the end of the day do you really think that Ana Valentine gives a shit about any of this?
Do you really think she gives a flying fuck on who tries to stand up for her or not? No the only thing on her mind is the dollar bill and as long as it’s paying her that’s all she wants in the long run.
Did i drop the ball against Amber last week?
Yes there’s no doubt about that but this week it’s about me and Eliza together. It’s about showing the whole world what the two of us can do together. So bring it you stupid cunts because this week you will find yourselves getting SHIPWRECKED
