Post by Kayla Richards on May 1, 2016 1:11:43 GMT
“Ah dunnae need ta be fed bullshit.”
Jace sat across from me, his long brown hair under a knitted cap. His face was sad and long. I felt bad, my heart raced and hurt with each beat. But what could I do?. He shook his head and leaned back in the chair, his huge upper body slumping down. “It’s true Jace. It’s not you it’s-“ He stop up and kicked the chair backwards causing it to fly across the apartment.
Our apartment.
One bought by us, one furnished by us. Not the little ratty one I came from. One that Renee and Amber wanted us in, one we built together into a home instead of a room. Jace was angry, and he had every right to be. He faced away, his hands on his hips as I studied the crest on his leather vest. The mark of the romani family Renee, Jave and Queenie came from.
For others it was a motorcycle gang symbol. To others it was proof of their lineage and upbringing. Jace was from this family and background. A family my sister has absorbed and become a part of. One I am now walking away from. He slowly turned back to me, his eyes burning in pain. He held back the upset and tears. He stayed strong. Good little soldier.
I saw his adam’s apple move as he swallowed. Pushing down the pain. “It is ya right?. Tha oldes’ line in tha book. Ya fulla shit.”
He leaned in as he spat the words at me. I shook and closed my eyes, I was scared. Not of Jace, he would never hurt me. But Queenie, Renee….they would. And I needed his help. “Jace please, you have to understand. I never meant to hurt you. I never meant to…to…”
“’Ave me fall in love wit ya?” It cuts like a knife. I can feel the blood. Jace shakes his head and looks away. He loved me, I know he did. But it’s too late for that now. He was never the one. “Hurt you….I never meant to HURT you.” My voice trembles and I spit them back with as much venom as he had with me.
“You were there, Amber and Renee pushed us, don’t you see?” Jace shakes his head. “Tha neva wanted us….”
I can’t help but laugh. Not in a happy or amused way, the sad realization way. Jace really thought it was fate, he really thought they…goddamnit. “You think they really meant it?. That they never wanted us together?.....My sister knows me better than anyone. Renee understands you…” I moved back and forth the anger rising. “They used you….”
Jace shook his head and stepped back. “Nah, nah ma kin wouldna-“ “They did!...think about it!, I was hurt, I was sad and needed something. And there you were…..and they said I couldn’t have you….Amber manipulated us….” Jace sat back down, his hands fumbling together, his breathing rough and deep. He looked down and then back up at me.
“Ah loved ya….I did. But, you cannae love me. Ya ‘ave nothing ta fear from me Kay….” I smiled warmly and gave him a slight nod sliding my hands over his. “I know, I know I don’t…but I do need your help….” He looked up at me, into my eyes, at my face, knowing my body language. He sighed deeply and gave me a nod. “I’ll try….”
“I don’t like where this is going.”
“I joined VWS and signed the contract because I was naïve enough to believe Ana Valentine. She told me that it would be different. That I would be able to just come to work without the politicking bullshit. I could get in the ring, I could step in front of the crowd. I could do my job.”
“Stupid me right?”
“Ana and her cronies, Crystal and my sister are making my life a living hell.”
“But this whole division in VWS is a joke. Ana stands above it holding the title over the heads of us all. And despite the fact I am one of the best in this company and the world I never had a chance. Instead we have a hand picked challenger and a silly little neon glow that seems to have fizzled out.”
Kayla scoffs and rolls her eyes.
“But now here we have this multi woman match for a shot at the title, Eliza made the cut, I’m sure as some sort of punishment in Ana’s mind, but I didn’t.”
“Crystal and Gina are good enough to be in the title match, Trixie and Samantha Tolson are good enough to get “shots” yet I’m not good enough?. I am a champion. I don’t need a championship title to prove it but I do want to help elevate that belt and make it something right away. I wanted to help VWS I wanted to help Ana, as stupid as it sounds.”
“But now, well now we’re going to have a stupid, grinning neon glowing idiot that is stuck in the 80’s or Ana’s lap dog. Yeah great champion….”
“I guess I’ll just have to beat the living hell out of Amber to show Ana why I deserve to be the champion…..it’s time to open her eyes…and all of yours…”
Eliza was a whirl of anger. A ball of energy that seemed to be exploding right in front of me. Her feet slammed against the concrete ground, her hands making all sorts of angry jerking movements. She grunted and grumbled under her breathe looking over at me occasionally. I know she wanted to say something, I know the words were right there at the back of her throat.
She stopped and studied me, I had my legs pulled up to my chest, dressed in my street clothes. A pair of black jeans, a white shirt and a black hoodie over the top. My hair down my face as I tried to show no emotion. Eliza took a deep breath and finally exploded. “Kay, how the hell can you just sit there like that after what just happened?”
I swallowed and looked down and away. Eliza shook her head and dropped to one knee in front of me, her hands on my knees as her chin rested on them so she could look me in the eye as we both sat on the cold ground of the lockerroms. Eliza stays locked on me, but I have no idea what to say, or how to act. My heart just feels numb. My body too.
She rubs my legs and tries to smile. I don’t return the emotion. Instead I stay seated. I stay silent and Eliza feels the pain.
“I’m sorry my chica. It’s not my place to-“ I grab her hands with mine and shake my head. “No, you don’t apologize, you don’t need to. None of this is your fault.” Eliza swallows and sighs deeply, her eyes betray her. She believes this is all her fault. That everything we have gone through is a result of our past and her actions.
“This is your aunt, my sister…her husband. All of it is their fault Liz. And they think they can break us. They think we will fall and wither under their bootheels…..” I push up to get to my feet as does Eliza, I grin at her and grit my teeth. “Amber has made a grave error, and you my beautiful Eliza, you and I will make them pay….”
Eliza smiles at me, I pull her into a kiss, her beautiful blonde hair feeling like heaven between my fingers as her soft lips melt into mine. I feel right, I feel happy, the numbness melts away and now I feel home….because I am hers and she is mine….
“You really wanted this didn’t you Amber?”
“Even before VWS started, even before my relationship with Eliza came to light.”
“You wanted this.”
“But it’s not just because of the family stuff is it?. You like to put forward this bullshit of “family first” but I am your family Amber. I am your blood, I am your sister. Renee is your husband and you love him, I get it. But the rest of them?”
Kayla rolls her eyes and shakes her head. We can’t see her mouth as she wears a bandana like a mask.
“Jace?, Queenie? The whole gang of leather clad, drunken idiots who can’t string a full sentence of English together or go five steps without beating up on their wife, girlfriend or daughter? You really expect me to have loyalty to them? It’s not what I want Amber, it’s what YOU wanted for ME….”
“Renee may have his whole pride thing and I can respect that but your issues with me have nothing to do with family pride…you just hid behind it….”
Kayla steps forward and folds her arms.
“What this is really about is simple. Jealousy.”
“You’re jealous I stepped away and had the strength to, you’re jealous that I went back with Eliza, you’re jealous that I have become a bigger star than you. You hate the fact your baby sister became more relevant than you when you stepped away to have babies….”
“In your absence I flourished. I grew and bloomed to become a champion and a better wrestler than you. People chanted my name, and they slowly forgot yours.”
“You wanted babies and family and you embraced that gypsy romani bullshit. You forced me into it when Eliza and I split but now, now she is what I want, she is what I deserve and instead of being a big sister and loving me and understanding that you have pushed it aside to focus on your own insecurities….”
“You want to make me bleed?, you want to spill my blood and intimidate me? We’re not kids anymore Amber, you step u to me I will put you down…because I have to”
